In the quiet.

Day breaks through the fabric of darkness
Searching for answers in the fog
I cry out to God
Break through my darkness that I may see light.

Final hurdle…

…not.

After four years of uni, GAAAH. This five-year course is starting to feel too long. But I comfort myself with the fact that I’ll graduate with two degrees under my belt. Hohoho.

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Righttt.

Tomorrow will be the final round of tutes for the year, but the nightmare has just begun. Three essays, all worth 50% due one after another. I can do this! I can do this! I can do this! *chants ad nauseam*

Re-enrolment for next year has opened, and as I was looking through the subjects available for my majors next year, it’s really saddening to see how many subjects have been cut out ever since the Melbourne Model was put in place. I compared the 2006 Handbook (the year I first enrolled) with the 2010 one, and more than half the subjects have disappeared, or have been changed and named differently. One subject I was particularly keen on doing for next year is not there anymore – I have a feeling it’s been replaced by this other subject which covers similar areas, but the structure is different from what I remembered it to be.

It’s hard to believe that next year will be my final year – and it’s scary too. I still don’t know where I’m headed after graduation in December 2010, but I’ll just have to keep trusting in God to lead me down this road. For now I see through a glass, darkly… now I know in part… but one day I will see all that He has had planned.

The girl and the cat

Here’s one of you and the cat

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Waittt a moment, what do you mean, “cat talk”?!

Boyband nostalgia

I was – and admittedly, still am – a huge fan of Backstreet Boys and Westlife. There, I’ve said it. And if there were any concerts in the near future, I will confess too, that I will not hesitate to buy tickets. Oh gosh. I feel like such a silly fangirl now.

The past few days, I’ve been listening to a lot of old BSB hits from the 90s era. Ah, the memories. As I was singing along to those sappy, cheesy lyrics, a somber thought came to me: that these songs now evoke different feelings. As naive young girls growing up in that pop-saturated era, where MTV was filled with endless videos of such songs, these songs had once seemed to tell of some fairytale romance that any impressionable teenager will obsess over.

Now as we move into adulthood, I think we’ve seen that real life isn’t the fairytale dreams that you probably once harboured in your hearts. So ten years later, I still listen to these songs, but no longer with a lovestruck, dreamy outlook or carefree innocence of childhood. We all have to grow up someday.

But hey, ten years later, both of my favourite boybands are still together (albeit each is less a member now)! And I still enjoy revisiting musical memory lane, listening to these songs from the 90s and early 2000s, every now and then. But the sands of time has carved imprints and etched scars upon the guilelessness of the young heart, and the songs no longer evoke emotional fantasies, but merely amusing memories of a naivety long past.

The end is nigh!

Final three weeks of the semester.

Gaaarh. Must pull through these last few weeks even if it kills me!!

I can’t wait to go home too. It feels like forever since I’ve been back, and I also feel like I haven’t had a decent long holiday at home especially in the last two years. I want a nice three-month break just being home.

Home….